The girl sitting behind me is so hot. I like my AP psych class. I wish I had better PUA (pick-up artist) skills, or any for that matter. She has huge tits. I feel like I need to fuck as many teenage girls as I can — when I get older, it’s going to be illegal to fuck teenage girls. But I’m not really attracted to them right now. I like older girls. Southern Roy says the older you get, the more it reverses. 

I gave blood at school today. This lady next to me blacked out, she started twitching and shit. 

It was awesome.

September 24th, 2008

I just hooked up with the same scummy slut girl in the parking lot of school — I think her name’s Erin. It seems I wait so long and then I seek out the mega sluts. She told me she’s pregnant with a baby, which she’s going to kill, and I quote, “I’d fuck but I don’t feel so good cause of this thing,” as she points to her belly. 

She’s this ghetto red-hair girl who goes to our school. I skipped second hour and was sitting outside when she walked by. She asked if I had a cigarette and I gave her one. I could tell she lives in a trailer. Hoop earrings, some gay-ass tattoo on her forearm of a rose. I remember her from middle school, I think. She’s kinda fat, like 135 lbs, super short though. But she has nice tits. She’s wearing tight black pants, some wrinkled t-shirt and Vans skate shoes. I convince her to go over to my car with me, and we walk out into the parking lot. We get in my car and I just start making out with her. She starts grabbing my dick and I start grabbing her tits. She lets me pull her tits out, I try to finger her and she stops me, saying “No, not now,” while she pushes me back, unbuttons my pants, and pulls my dick out. She starts sucking my dick, jerking it from the bottom and sucking on the top up and down. She pulls my balls out and lets them breath, grabbing my balls and sucking my cock. I have to get back to class soon so I jerk myself off and hold her head over my cock. She opens her mouth and sticks her tongue out as I jerk off into her mouth, the tip of my dick going in and out of it, breathing heavily. 

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum!” 

As soon as I say that she pushed her head all the way down and sucks every last drop of cum. I put my dick in my pants and she wipes her mouth. I give her another cigarette to smoke while we walk back to class. 

I took Rachel home today from a meeting, and kiss closed. I don’t know why but I always end up getting with girls I don’t really like. She’s cool, cool as fuck really, and she’s six years older than me. But the attraction just isn’t there… Sometimes I act like I have these crazy high standards but when it comes down to it, I’ll fuck anything, just give me a pulse. 

Haha, or no pulse. Whatever. 

I don’t know why but I have this weird thing with fucking dead bodies. Like, not that I would, obviously, but I just think it’s funny.. you never really see any shows about necrophilia or books or stories, but I know there are people who really do that. I always wanted to write a short story about people who own a morgue and secretly fuck all the bodies… “HURRY! WE GOT A WARM ONE!”

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My dream girl would be a girl who is a little out of shape, not fat, but a little gut that she’s insecure about, you know. A girl who smokes cigarettes and has a bunch of tattoos she regrets because she got them when she was fucked up. With  a fat ass — she’s gotta have a fat ass. A fat ass and tracks marks. The face I don’t really care what it looks like. Some crooked teeth because her parents couldn’t afford braces. Fucks guys for money on Backpage and LOVES to suck cock and take it up the ass. A real filthy son of a bitch. Loves to get treated like shit. Depressed and irate on most days…

Pretty much the girl version of me. Haha.

I wish I was joking, but I’m really attracted to that type of shit. When I see a girl in a meeting with cuts on her arms, my dick gets hard. If she cuts herself, imagine what she will do to me, mmmm a little fire cracker of a whore…

Sometimes I read back my own writing and I think, “Jesus Christ, who writes this sick shit?”

Life is so boring. I get lost in my own writing, sitting at a fucking desk in class. I feel like I’ve been sitting in a fucking desk my whole life, probably cause I have, 17 years of this bullshit.

The bell is about to ring.

Talk to you later…