I’m so glad Train Wreck Scott gave me those speaker tapes. I got 'em on my iPod. Holy shit, I was listening to this guy Jaime, he got clean when he was 15. It’s cool when you hear your thoughts through someone else. You’re like “Samn, that dude thinks the way I think.” This guy got clean at 15 and is still clean, he’s got like 24 years clean now.

Fucking crazy.
 

January 13th, 2009

I have a 57% in Algebra 2. Maybe I’ll pass. I’m going to tutoring after school. I didn’t get into fucking FAU. 

I didn’t get into ANY colleges.

I have to re-apply. But you know what, I'm not so stressed out about it. I know everything will be okay. Worrying about it will only make me miserable. I have to do better next semester.

Gio is doing alright. It’s easy to do what you have do straight out of detox — it’s when you start to feel okay and you think you got control, that’s when your disease takes a shot at you. And after a few months, you’re back in that hospital gown or that jail cell wondering how you let it happen again.