Weight training is going good. I can do 235lbs four times. My core is terrible, though! I have so much fat still, this must be taken care of immediately.

I’ve been hooking up with this weird, hippie blonde girl from class. She’s new to school, so she thinks I’m like some nice kid, hahaha. I call her Tails, because she LOVES giving head. It was the only nickname I could think of that sounded kinda normal.  She came over yesterday and surprisingly I enjoyed her company. She brings out this weird Bryan in me. I made her a CD and she gave me the new Kanye and a mix she made. We watched Ferris Bueller and part of Juno. She sucks my cock so good. She doesn’t just suck it, she worships it, “Oh Bryan, you got such a great cock.” She licks the sides of it, spits on the top of it and then shoves it deep in her mouth, gasping and staring at it. “I love your cock,” sucking it fast, spit dripping down her chin, she sucks my balls and jerks me off the way I like it. Every second she moans, “Mmmm baby, you taste so good.” She sucks me and pushes my gooch with her finger, this spot under my balls, it feels so good. “Cum in my mouth, Bryan. Bryan, I want to taste your cum, cum in my mouth.” 

I look down at her and slap her face with my cock as she sucks my balls and my gooch. I slap her again real hard with my cock!  She gasps, “Ohh fuck, your dick feels so good on my face.” I jerk myself off and when I’m on the verge of cumming, I shove it in her mouth deep and mumble, “Uhhh swallow my cum bitch.” After I cum I always think, “Wow, I can’t believe this girl lets me do this shit to her.” It grosses me out like, what? How can this pretty girl wanna suck balls? That’s so gross! Lmao.

Scott called me. He told me that Danny went out. He was 24 and had three years clean. Danny is “just drinking and smoking pot,” for now. He’s a really good speaker and always mentions how he’s tried to drink and every single time it leads him back to the same shit. It sucks man. Everyone is going out.

Alegebra 2 fucking BLOWS! I’d be so much happier if I didn’t have to take this class. I’m so bad at math.


“Just for today
my thoughts will be on my
new associations, people who are not using
and have found a new way of life. So long
as I follow that way
I have nothing to fear.”

—NA Booklet

February 11th, 2009

I got sent home from work yesterday for not making any sales. I haven’t been to a meeting in a few days either, but I’m going to my H&I commitment today, so that’s cool.